11/05/2016 – I was off today, slept in. Felt no motivation to go into college today. I still had to edit my showreel though. I’m trying to finish a fourth cut while fighting the urge to jump off a 3 story building. Here are my previous cuts.
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I lied in that first line. I did go into college after lunch for a peer review that Michael had planned. I felt it was necessary to go in to get feedback on if people thought my showreel was as artsy as I had perceived it. Or maybe it was just the fact I had spent so much time with it I grew a bond and felt the need to protect it whenever possible. The peer review went OK. It wasn’t what I wanted. But it was enough. It has definitely opened my eyes on what my showreel can be, now that I see as they see. I started editing as soon as I got home.
12/05/2016 – Off again. Still no motivation to do anything. Except work. Since I was ahead in work experience or I’ve at least given the illusion of this fact. I spent this time writing my evaluation of the work experience. It was more of a guide. they specified it to be a guide. But I’ll give them an evaluation and say its a rough guide they should get an image of what I did to get my work experience. I’ll tell Tommy to check it out and hopefully by then he will be ready to review the group I was in for my final module of my work experience page. Still plenty of time left. Or at least that’s what I keep telling myself.
13/05/2016 – This morning I made the effort to push myself out the door just in time to catch the bus but unfortunately First Buses had a different idea. After cursing whatever driver was in control that morning I waited at the bus stop for about an hour. Was it worth it? Absolutely not. But I still waited. When I finally got into college I found myself in an almost empty classroom ready to publicly write up my opinions of everyone else’s showreel’s. Afraid of being too harsh and in turn getting the shit kicked out of me around the back of Cumbernauld’s very own KFC Diner I felt my best course of action was to be neutral for most of them or at least give the illusion of being neutral while passively aggressively hinting towards them that 15 shots of your cat and one of a door is not a showreel its an art piece and should be sold to some overconfident loser that feels his status relies on how much he pays for peoples work. In conclusion today was a good day.
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